So after the move, I tried pumping, and realized my supply was super low. Like 1 oz per side. So I stopped, tried having him breastfeed every time he wanted, which was all day long, and nothing changed.
Its so disheartening. I was doing so well for so long and then bam! I'm back in a place where I was with Sadie. I'm so depressed right now because this time I actually enjoyed it, and it was easy, and I felt such a bond with my little guy. Some days I feel like a total failure cause its happened again for the second time.
I dont know what to do, supply is still low, I dont know if its worth trying to get back up. I dont know if anything I do will fix it cause its so low. I have good days where I am ok with quitting and then I have days where I wonder if I'm giving up too easy. The day I took to have him eat all day was so hard. He cried all the time and probably cause he was hungry and not getting enough. It broke my heart. Pumping has never really helped me increase supply, and I dont know if I can do it on prescription drugs and herbal stuff.
I might try again. Hes gotta go in for his blood work to make sure hes fine, but hes not yellow at all to me so I'm sure hes fine. After that, I might load up on pills and be a human cow for a while, pumping and feeding all the time. I dont know.
Anyhoo, if any of you know of someone who could get their supply from 1oz per side to much higher, let me know. It might encourage me to continue.